Whoa! Where did February go? So much has happened and I cannot wait to share everything with you over the next couple weeks.
If you’ve been following my writing journey you know that my goal was to finish my first draft by the end of February. The good news is that I’m still writing the book, developing my characters, and wrestling with plot lines. The bad news is that I didn’t meet my goal.
They say that most of us have a book within us. Perhaps you’ve survived the most incredulous ordeal, you’ve learned a lesson, or you’ve had an experience. You envision that your voice could bring value, meaning, and life to someone else.
I suppose that’s where this writing journey began for me. An inspiration within myself. A voice I wanted to give life to.
This past summer I read Anne Jackson’s book Permission to Speak Freely. On the very last page she issues this statement,
“Somebody is waiting on you to tell your story. To share how you’re being rescued. To share how scary it is but how beautiful it is. Someone is waiting for the little ounce of courage that your voice can give them, so they can begin to find their own piece of freedom. And even beyond that, somebody is waiting on that person. It all can really begin with you. So take a step. Confess the beautiful and broken. It happens one word at a time.”
I closed her book, bowed my head, and mumbled to God, “Okay, Im in!”
But that was 7 months ago…. I had no idea what I was in for.
Mid-way through February my husband took the kiddos away for two nights so I could embark on a mega writing marathon. For 48 hours I wrote. I was in a very hard, yet critical part of the story, and I knew that I just needed to muscle through it. As I did, several dreaded things became apparent to me:
1) I wanted to quit.
2) This story was stupid.
3) I should have never told anyone that I was writing a book.
Ahhh, so this is the perilous journey of writing a book. I’m told it’s normal. My mentors tell me to keep writing. Never give up.
As the days have unfolded, I’ve felt some things within my story shake loose. I have been given light to a few dark areas. So, the positive news is that I continue to write and I will do so until it’s completion (timeframe unknown).
“You aren’t actually thankful for something if you think you actually earned it. That’s pride, not gratitude.” Ann Voskamp
This journey is good and I am grateful.